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Happy 2012!

2012-01-18T20:30:00.002+08:00

I know i'm extremely late but.. I'm tired and busy!:( Is it too late to do a resolution and an ending of 2011 post?:( I don't care, i'm gonna blog today.

Current Mood: Sleepy.

I really cannot imagine myself sitting here, blogging, waiting for April to come before i turn into a year 2 student. 1 year pass real fast. Cannot imagine me surviving poly into this ulu course of DEWT because i wasn't interested at all. But the modules are getting harder and tougher. Life in poly is not gonna be better, but it adds more stress. I don't regret meeting these people in 2011, whether positive or negative, appreciate all of your existence to me.

DEWT 01'11/12

Joan, Chuxin, JG, Kevin

Clique <3

5B'10 + Francesca

5B'10 girls.

Darius, Joan, Edmund

Really like that i still meet up with my secondary school classmates and go out together. Still met up with Simin, mg, etc. Really want to thank everyone esp those who had helped me with my school work and my listeners! Love you!

Finally met up with Tracy Ko after 5years of not meeting each other! Omg really can't believe it!♥♥♥

Been so busy with school work, reports, reports, reports and MORE reports. Thanks Edmund for helping me with my PLJ because i really cannot handle so many things. Exams are nearing and i have no confidence because my mid-term test somehow demoralised me. Don't tell me i'm crazy because i get 80 marks for eng math and i'm demoralised because semestral exam isn't going to be easy. I hate it when they want to raise the standards higher and higher. We ain't Jesus.

My simple resolution, be happy and not losing contacts with all my friends.

Santa Claus

2011-12-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

This year is ending soon, so fast isn't it? I wished it wasn't. 2011 wasn't a pleasant year for me, i hope 2012 would be better.

I would want to have a good life ahead!

Midnight

2011-12-15T02:27:00.001+08:00

Many things running through my mind right now. Thought about the past, still not knowing why we had that past. Perhaps sometimes it's better not knowing. It could be blessing in disguise. Knowing the answer may ruin the image I had for you for so long. So it's better not to know.

I really feel wasted that we're not talking now. I just really wanna be friends back with you. I wanna know how are you doing well. I wished you on happy birthday every single year ever since we knew each other. This year ain't exceptional. Other ppl may call me foolish. But I think it's worth being friends with you again regardless of the past. I can let go, but I won't forget.

A lot more things in my mind now.. But I ought to force myself to sleep now. It's 2 in the morning. Goodnight people:)

30 Days Letter Challenge - Three

2011-12-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

Challenge Two is for my crush but I don't have one because my boy isn't my crush. Crush: A usually temporary infatuation. So i'll skip to three, letter to my parents.

Dear Mum and Dad,
I love you. Thanks for taking care of me all these years. But i really don't like all your naggings, accusations and forcing me to do things i don't like. I'm not a child anymore. I'm a teenager going on to my 20s (I can't believe it). Sometimes you just gotta respect my decisions. But i'm thankful for having a house to stay, a family. Thanks for your unconditional love for me and unconditional conditions to take care of me and my siblings. I know it's not easy to raise a child. So i'm not gonna have one. But you'll still carry your grandchildren from sister and brother y'know. Don't depend on me even though i'm the youngest:) You'll both grow old together and be as loving as possible. My blessings are always to you.

I want to go Christmas Shopping:(

Could We?

2011-12-14T13:33:00.000+08:00

Serious quarrels, sick of it. Many times i feel like giving up. Maybe I've changed, like you said. But I would definitely not change back. As usual, this is me. Is either you accept it, or you don't. It's part of life when people change. We just gotta accept it. Perhaps I'm the girl whom could not accept defeat and will naturally build a wall around me. Sorry. I don't know how to feel, i don't know how to react. I just go by situation.

It does matter

2011-12-13T01:27:00.001+08:00

Wished you were here.. I really don't know what's wrong with me. Such a really really bad day for me. Things have been so wrong for me ever since you went to Taiwan. Please come back soon. I need your shoulders badly. I don't wanna be alone..

Sunny Day

2011-12-11T22:16:00.005+08:00

Spirited Away

It's my all time favourite Japanese Movie Anime. The couple were very sweet and how i wish both of them got together in the end! Watched it again today and I don't mind watching it again and again. I felt happy and sweet for them when i was watching and how i wish i was that girl! Hehehe. Dreaming again.

Song of the week, Someone like you - Adele.

The melody and music just stayed in my mind.

Nevermind, i'll find someone like you, i wish nothing but the best for you too. Don't forget me, i beg. I remember you said, sometimes it last in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

30 Days Letter Challenge - One

2011-12-10T23:54:00.002+08:00

Letter to Best Friend

Dear Best Friend,

It's been long since we've last meet each other although we're studying in the same big school. You're always so busy with your projects and test. Even when we see each other, it'd be a hi-bye thing because we're busy with our things too. I hope you're doing and coping well in school because poly life is really so different from secondary school. I hope no one would bully and take advantage of you because you're quite gullible at times you know!:P Study hard, get good GPA! I miss you. I hope we could really meet up this holiday and go out together and enjoy ourselves. Ikea hotdog is waiting for us!:) Really hope we could meet up soon and meet up once in a while.

Seen this challenge at tumblr and i think it's quite cool because although i don't have the courage because it's quite funny to write a letter(unless it's a birthday card) to friends, i can still write it here to express myself.

Day 1. 7more days to go. Installed blogger app on my phone, so now i can update through my phone instead of my laptop when school starts! Since i've no time to use laptop when school starts thus the 1month+ of not blogging..

Useless

2011-12-09T23:43:00.003+08:00

It's kind of depressed to be me, and have me. It just sucks to know it and when i know it, i can't tell anyone how i feel because they won't understand. Some might, or might not, look down on me, or sympathise with me. No words can describe, well..

Now i know how actresses in dramas felt the stress when they're dating with the only son in the family. The high expectations of the parents have on the only son and naturally high expectations of the only daughter. No, i hasn't experience all these stress and high expectations. But soon or later, I would..

Just two questions.

Should we really live hard and die young?

Should we not think about the future and just live our lives now, or think about the future and feel stress and scared upon thinking of the future?

I feel so scared upon thinking about my future. I feel like a burden to you, to our future.. How i wish i could share with you, but..

Talking about you, have fun in Taiwan for 8 days. Enjoy :)

#Octoberwish

2011-10-07T23:24:00.007+08:00

Departure from Singapore.

Miss Vietnam trip a lot. Fun and more fun.

School's starting in about a week. Not looking forward with this kind of busy modules and timetable..

Hope everything goes smoothly..

Make the Right Choice

2011-09-05T17:49:00.004+08:00

Busy this week with projects and packing.

Hope it'll be a tough yet meaningful trip.

Hth talk. Confused, lost, tough decisions.

Shut everything, see nothing..

Finally

2011-09-03T20:27:00.002+08:00

A time to enjoy after being stress for 2weeks. Shopping, relaxing, rotting.

Feels weird during holiday doing nothing. Ironic.

Think it'll be impossible to be as before. I see no light.

I can.

2011-08-25T01:12:00.004+08:00

First paper later, goodluck everyone!

31th, i'll be waiting for you. I'll do what i'm suppose to, make the effort. I'm really trying it now.

& I really swear. It's all misunderstanding, right from the start.

Exams around the Corner

2011-08-18T16:33:00.002+08:00

Went to watch fireworks at the flyer during national day with classmates! Exams are coming just next week and i don't know any bit of it:( Sigh. I really hope i can pass! Somehow regretted going to Vietnam for 2 weeks. 2 weeks without you, without friends, family, my bed:(

Had Aston at Suntec on Zoey's birthday. Happy 17th Girl! Happygirl94 who received her dream present!:D

I have just taken out my braces yesterday! Happygirl93 awesome maxz! So sweet of my dear boy to accompany me to the dentist:) Had pepperlunch with him for lunch and studied awhile. Also had Haagen Daz icecream with him for our pre-dinner!:)

Had Ajisen for my lunch today with ky and xr! Been so long since i've last seen them:( Happy much! This week is a fattening week!!:( Tuesday Aston, Wednesday Pepper lunch + Icecream, Thursday Ajisen, Friday Superdog:( Seriously i need to slim down, i'm getting fatter and fatter:( And then my boy sure won't want me already:(

Circumstances

2011-08-02T00:11:00.003+08:00

I miss how times were before poly started. Before you came and screw my world up for 2months.

I miss how times were during the first month of poly, where everyone of us were so wild and united, before things came crashing down.

The second one was the best time of my life this year. I really miss those times. My life wouldn't be great this year 'cause it isn't my year. Seriously why fan tai sui? Shouldn't buddha or goddess of mercy be forgiving? Why come out all this fan tai sui thingy? Wish this year can pass quickly.

I feel that as though everything is my fault. I feel so guilty for everything that happened. I don't know what happened to us. I feel very outcasted no matter how i tried to join in the topic you all were talking. I'm really making the effort.

I'm not sure how much confidence i can put into this 'cause once bitten twice shy.

Exams are nearing and i think i'm going to do badly for it.. Oh no:(

:)

2011-07-10T23:19:00.004+08:00

Made a wrong turn

Once or twice

Dug my way out

Blood and fire

Bad decisions

That's alright

Welcome to my silly life.

No matter how you treat me, i still really regard you as a really good friend of mine. I'm sorry you guys quarreled. I really hope you guys are okay. I know i'm stupid to be so kind, but you were once really good to me.

Assignments, assignments, and more assignments. Really kept me going crazy and frustrated. Why is poly life so busy and tired?:( I really want back my secondary schl life.

July

2011-07-03T16:16:00.004+08:00

Wenjun's 18th:) Had a mini-surprise for her with Edmund! She's very surprised. HAHAHA. But somehow the plan a bit fail:P But she still was shocked and touched!:P Luv you girl!!♥♥

Ytd's Singapore International Water Festival(SIWF) and photos taken with MUTTONS from 987!!! LIKE AWESOME ONLY! I didn't expect to really see them real life when i always hear them in the radio!! ♥♥

Anw the main point was, we're suppose to be at the gallery, telling people what is this gallery about etc. But me and Zoey didn't say anything 'cause apparently the people were doing their own things etc. HAHAHA. Damn slack seriously!:P Walked around MB after that and went to Marina Square with Ann, Zoey, Zhichye, Desheng and Daniel and we pool-ed!! Ann and Daniel one team, me and Zhichye, Desheng and Zoey. LIKE COOL ONLY:P Thanks to Zhichye we won both groups! Hehehehe. Seriously awesome! I want to pool again leh! Although i'm still noob! Hehehe. & Oh yeah, transformer 3:Dark of the Moon is awesome!!(Y) Watched it with the guys on Wednesday! I don't mind watching again!:D

I should just accept everything.

Goodbye June.

2011-06-30T16:05:00.004+08:00

Pictures taken during this month! See facebook if you want to see more:)

To waste one year, or to waste three years? I'm really not sure of my path now.. Poly life.. It's actually not bad but.. I'm also not sure how to put it.

You would definitely help me to research on my materials if we were still talking. You would definitely kill my boredom in the middle of the night if i'm bored or when insomnia hit me. You definitely won't ignore me... I guess time change hur? Didn't had expected this to happen. To other people, maybe yes. But you, no. You said we won't drift, i asked you before. Why am i such a loser? Where did i lose to her...

Utterly Disappointed

2011-06-15T02:19:00.005+08:00

I know, i'm totally out of your life now. Msn, blocked. Facebook, blocked. Next, twitter? I don't know what you're thinking. Just because you've girlfriend then you wanna cut off connections with me-a normal friend? Where's the link seriously? I feel so disappointed in you. Sigh. No words can describe your actions to this and my feelings to this. You should just jolly well delete me from everything, remove me from your life. Like you stated in twitter, she's worth it. She's all worth it for you to do anything to please her. What else could i say?

Is this what i deserve? Do i deserve all these? Do i?

You would be talking to me now, at this time, when i'm bored. We would be on the phone at this time, chatting about my life, your work. You would kill my boredom at this time when i'm bored, telling me silly jokes, and i would be ranting to you. I know, no use forcing.

Too Late

2011-06-11T16:48:00.004+08:00

I'm sorry for those few previous post. Just ignore it, 'cause i just need to rant somewhere. Of cus i still feel sad, but at least i'm able to smile:) Who reads it anyway. Proper update now i guess.

Went out with Xinyi and Zhiting the day after MST was over. Screw APC! Xinyi isn't inside the picture 'cause all taken were not very nice. So see facebook instead.

Marina Barrage Training on 3rd June to prepare for SIWF.

Stayover @ Qihao's Condo cum Sandy's 17th.

More pictures at facebook. Have nothing else to say. Bye!

I still miss your everything.

What else?

2011-06-09T01:49:00.003+08:00

Dumb fuck he's already attached why am i still clinging to every piece of hope and faith. Seriously it's not meant to be. 我真的输得以派土地。I shouldn't even see your profile and hurt myself even more. I really feel like unfollowing you in twitter and delete you off in facebook but that would give the impression that i'm some petty bitch that can't handle small cake. Seriously this is small cake?? Wth?? No way at all. ENOUGH OF THIS PLEASE. SERIOUSLY. Everything is because of you. Why is it have to be you?? Because of you i felt love, because of you i felt concern, because of you i felt motivated, because of you i felt mirthful.. Seriously mirthful.. Just take it as i'm stupid okay. Gemma is stupid. Because of you i felt hurt, because of you i felt sad, because of you demoralised, because of you... I sometimes really have the urge to just text and scold you. And clarify what's all those things 1month ago. Thanks for blocking me in msn. Should i totally cut off connections with you? I doubt you would even care. Yeah, you won't even care. Perhaps you would just say i'm crazy behind my back. But on second thought you're not those kind of person who would bitch about people. What am i actually thinking. Wth. I'm sorry i just need to rant somewhere.

I'm sick, flu, cough, headache, dry throat, and i'm handling all this shit. I feel like spamming panodols, but no. I'm not that stupid to do this kind of seriously stupid thing.

I'm sorry, just screw my life.

Ten thousand feet below.

2011-06-03T00:54:00.005+08:00

I really feel that i'm very unimportant now. Nobody needs me, i'm just like a nobody. Everyone played and used me. Cheat my feelings again and again. I believe what people say, but i really really see no reason why am i so good to be lied to? I don't mind being lied to, but i really mind my feelings being cheated. Perhaps i'm born to be like that. Perhaps the past 1month are all just superficial. Superficial happiness. Seriously what on earth had happened to me I.can't.take.it.any.more. I feel terrible right now. It's just very tiring to leave my house, no, leave my room and having a smile and laughter on my face. It's even more tiring to face those annoying people in schl with my smile and laughter still on my face. I just want a shoulder to lean and cry on, pour out everything. I know your shoulder isn't going to be there for me anymore, forever. It wasn't for me to begin with. I'm terrible, i'm such a terrible person. I'm like a mentally dead like a zombie and physically crazy like a kid. I don't know, i just want to cry forever and not accepting any fact that have happened to me. It's a nightmare, i would wake up from it, right? I know i will. Perhaps it's entirely all my fault.. For thinking too much.

Do you ever feel already buried deep, six feet under scream, but no one seems to hear a thing?
What's the point of having so many friends if none would bother when you need help?

Karma

2011-05-27T00:03:00.003+08:00

Nice, 4th karma hit me the greatest for the actions i did 4years ago. The worse actions 4years ago, and the worst karma 4years later. Seems like it get worse each time. What goes around comes around. 4 things that goes around, 4 karma comes around. I suppose it's offset now. Offset everything, i'm so sick of it. Karma hit me back real hard.

I still thank you for the memories we had. I thank you for caring for me and such. I thank you for making me mistaken your feelings for me and my feelings for you. I thank you for playing with my life. I thank you for putting an end so i know i should stop waiting. Thanks for treating me this way, and i really thought you were different. I thank you for everything.

You and my past experience have changed my perceptions of guys. I don't know how to communicate with them anymore.

What else can i say to karma? I admit defeat.

I was wrong

2011-05-25T20:03:00.005+08:00

So what if i'm sad or disappointed? Can anything be changed? No. Everything changed from the start. You really played around with my life although it's just 3months plus. If it's meant to be, it will. If not i wouldn't. This is really funny that i still can smile out yet shaking my head. Laughing at how dumb i was. If it's meant to be like this, why treat me good in the first place? Perhaps you treat everyone the same like how you treated me. Perhaps i was wrong, i can never really see through a person. I thought i was at least in your world, but actually i was never in your world at all. Ironic much? I really don't know what else could i say. You shouldn't have treat me well. I rather you don't treat me well if we're gonna be like this for no reason. Perhaps i know the reason. But i would really you don't treat me well at all. I think today is the day that i found out the reason why. I don't know. I'm just shocked and sad about it, but i can't do anything, can i? Where were you when i needed you? I never thought it'll be like this. I admit defeat.

It ended before it even started. Gemma, you're really a loser.

Never thought it'll be like this

2011-05-11T22:10:00.007+08:00

And now that I'm stronger I've figured out,

How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul.

And I know, I'll find deep inside me.

Things isn't going that well for me now. Partly because of schl and partly because of my own problems, and i think it's gonna get worse from here. Sigh, when are all this just going to end? I'm not that strong as you thought. I could only just live with this shit.

Reunion

2011-05-08T03:31:00.002+08:00

Thanks to Agnes' 18th birthday which i could meet up with 5B'10 people, Francesca and her classmates! Missed them so much, esp BFFs! Been quite long since we've went out tgt, although they had went out a few days ago tgt but i was busy. Heh. There are still more photos in Jiaxin's, Shihui's and Agnes' camera. Shall have to wait for them to upload on fb! Missed everyone, especially 5B'10 ♥. P/S: I think i look idiot in the pictures. Anw more pictures in my fb tagged photos!:)

Nothing much to update on poly life, just the usual clique slacking around after schl, doing group assignment and lab report.

General Elections were held today and the voting results were all out. As expected, PAP won the most seats, 81 seats i think. My area, Pioneer, PAP won! :) I support PAP. But the saddest part was that George Yeo lost to WP :( It's quite a sad thing 'cause George Yeo is quite a competent leader as well as a competent minister of foreign affairs:( Disappointing! Aww, a lot of people are supporting WP, i think i'm weird 'cause i support PAP. :/

Time to sleep, it's 3.53am now! Happy Mothers' Day! :)

Bye April, Hello May.

2011-05-01T21:05:00.003+08:00

Awesome girls! ♥

2weeks of schl just passed like that, can't really catched up with all the modules and homeworks:( Felt so different from secondary schl, how i missed secondary schl life. Sigh, but i still love my poly-mates! :) In poly, you'll experience different kind of things, encounter different kind of people.

Many things happened, went for the Vitol talked by Robert Swan, about saving the Earth and environment. His talk was interesting. The most inspiring talk was "The greatest threat to our planet is the belief that someone else will save it". The first person to walked on North and South pole for like more than 50km in the cold. Like -75 degrees?! Imagine the coldness. My utmost respect to him and his team!

1A01 are my happypills. Without them, my life in poly would be a total bore. :) But i miss BFFs, been 2weeks plus since i've last went out with them:( I miss mg although we just met up last thurs but we seldom meet up mah! I like going out with him 'cause i feel really really comfortable! I don't know why, he also just makes me happy. Miss going out with him! Hahahah! But recently he keep ignoring meh leh, maybe he's busy or something! Hahaha. Gemma loves to think positively :DDD

Gemma is getting fatter, time to slim down. :)

1A01 Clique♥

2011-04-20T17:47:00.003+08:00

1A01's sisters! ♥

I swear that they're the funniest people and nicest classmate you can ever ask for! It's just 1st week of schl and we're like some close buddy already! Talking nonsense here and there, being lame, shooting each other like some long lost friend! I want to join ABE club and one other CCA, like yoga or something to keep fit!! Gemma is fat already :( Hehehe. ♥ poly 'cause my classmate are just so awesome!

Satisfaction?

2011-04-03T02:00:00.004+08:00

Jessica had said, "Both of your wishes are fulfilled, braces and lens." But i still don't look nice compared to BFFs! :( Aiya, i'm admit i'm vain, but i'm lousy in being vain.

School's starting in a week's time and somehow i'm not excited for school :( I'll try to update here regularly instead of updating once a month! 'Cause my life is such a mundane during holidays and busy to update during O's period.

P/S: I'm seriously going to screw RWS if they're not gonna correct my pay!! My 400bucks is very important okay!

Temptation

2011-03-25T23:21:00.003+08:00

I know i'm ugly, but i just love my braces (Y) heheheh.

I got my testimonial and O's cert from school today, i felt that the testimonial was very unreal. It seems like it flatter the student too much. Saw my O's cert again, i feel regretful. I know i'm not suppose to regret, but i really regret not studying hard enough for my comb humans and comb science. I could easily get an A2 IF ONLY i completed my physic practical and studied harder for my SBQ. I could easily get an A1 for my e-maths if only i wasn't complacent. If only.. All those if only. What's the point saying it now? I'm going to poly like in 2 weeks. Now O's is out of my league, but i can't stop thinking about it. I really want to go back to O's period and study harder and not to be lazy. I really miss teachers really pushing us and encouraging us to work hard, practice hard, study hard.

Went to taman jurong mac to eat with wj before heading to schl, reminisce a lot. It gives me the familiarity, it've been 6months since i've been there and walked that path to schl. I should not be thinking of you because we're grateful for each other for exchanging knowledge.

I've got my admission card for my polytechnic. I look fucking ugly, and i fucking look so tent like indian -.- I want to kill them seriously. They made my face look so fucking dark. But nevertheless, SP, here i come. But honestly speaking, i'm not looking forward to schl and for orientation. Sigh.

Work at RWS was awesome. I shld have work there earlier. The people there are really very nice. (Except for some aunties who just love bullying the young once.) I fail at dieting :( All the foods are so tempting. Gemma control, control! Control all the nice foods at work! 3 more months before my braces is off! :) Can't wait for it. And Gemma realised she's gullible, her BFF's msn got hacked by some asshole and talked to me. I realised it was weird when she talked to me but somehow i couldn't figure out what is weird. And i believed every word she said. Gemma is lousy, sigh, i'm in really fucking deep shit now.

Future

2011-02-13T10:43:00.003+08:00

I know i'm slow but, Gemma is going to Singapore poly's environmental management and water technology! I didn't expect the first reaction to see the text was "Fuck, somebody please help me." 'cause my first priority was to go into business course. So apparently my first instinct wasn't to call my parents and tell them, but to call handsome guy. But he was asleep like some pig 'cause he slept like 4 or 5plus in the morning. So i called Cherelle instead, I thought that she would understand my feeling, instead she rant about her course to me!! Tsk. But Cherelle ah Cherelle, your course is seriously very good although i'm not into science course. Anw, called handsome guy after that and he asked me to appeal. Many friends bombed me with text asking where i go, some asked me to appeal too! I appreciate their text 'cause they still bother to ask if i like the course or not :)) Thanks Shihui! You're still as nice as before, a very good friend! :P So of course i appealed to Hotel and Leisure Facilities in SP 'cause i'm totally not satisfied with my course at that point of time. And stupid Gemma doesn't know why on earth did she even put that course in there. Actually she knows why, and it's her fault :( But it's okay, I can think straight already now! :)

So my appeal results was 2 weeks later and was unsuccessful. I was damn sad and i somehow vented on handsome guy, sorry :( But i'm okay now! But this week ain't a good week, parents were so irritating talking about my course when i still don't like it at that point of time, my brother looking down on me, handsome guy too busy with his work, my friend told me something that freak me out. Love Cherelle so much! She helped me to think positively about my course. HAHA. Damn happy 'cause Wenjun and me are going to SP while Shihui and Khaiyee are going to NP, at least we'll have at least 1 people in school, rather than 3 in one school and another 1 alone in the other school :) And apparently no one is in my course :((( How to survive class manxzx! So alone.

Cherelle loves Gemma! So sweet! HAHAHA. Cherelle is also very lame 'cause she's still in her dreamland waiting for her ang moh boyfriend to arrive.

My family are one weird thing. The 2 things i want to buy when i get my pay, Itouch and contact lens, i don't care what my parents say, i must get contact lens although it's a want and not a need. Girls need to be vain also right! HAHA. I can hear my sis saying, "You're still young la!" Please, i'm not 12 :) I'm at the legal age now, i can learn driving this year.

Til here, gotta prepare to go relative's house later and work tomorrow, excited! :)

Mixed feelings

2011-01-11T16:47:00.003+08:00

Gemma is back from Taiwan 3rd Jan 2011, celebrated New Year at Taiwan! Awesome much. Well, after a week of holiday and a week of rotting at home, O's results were out yesterday. There were tears of joy and tears of disappointments. What's done is done, we can't reverse time and repeat it. We only can face it, move forward, plan a new route. Congratulations to those who did well. Those who didn't, buck up in your future studies, study harder! The results i got is what I had dreamt earlier in Jan 2010, even way before i had my common test 1. Creepy or what?! Apparently I've chosen my course. With this not high, yet also not low results, it's hard to choose a course. Those courses i choose is 1 point lower than my score. WTH. So pray hard i can get in. It's damn irritating to be like 1 point higher and not being able to get into the course i want! Nevermind. It's the end of the journey of JSS. The schl, the teachers, the classmates and schoolmates are all missed and loved. 5 years of journey isn't any easy, especially the last year. Hope we could all see each other again in our post-secondary school, :)

Time flies

2010-12-27T02:16:00.002+08:00

Awesome colleagues! ♥ them to the max. Last day of work, will miss all of them. Miss the time where we can talk, chill, chit-chat. Good working environment, not reprimanding us when we did wrongly, not making me hold responsible when the cashier accounts doesn't tally. Not scolding me when I key in wrong amount of money, over/undercharge customers or when we're all slow. Appreciate Iris's hard work during this 2 weeks plus without taking any off day and working full shift. Helping us out when customer is unreasonable. Miss having lunch tgt with Simin and chilling after work. Miss going home with Huimin and Huishi. First working experience, a really extremely pleasant one.

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Thanks 2010 for being a wonderful year. Although there are ups and downs, i still managed to survive through it. Lousy results, prelims, teachers, scoldings, O's. I managed to go through all this obstacle and make it to end of 2010. Lovable classmates of class 5B, awesome cliques and friends. Thanks to people who are always there for me whether i'm happy or sad. I'll miss studying with Jessica at mac every Saturday before O's. I'll miss how my a-maths improved thanks for Shihui's coaching, replying my annoying text every 3 to 5 days. I'll miss going out with the girls to town and cam-whoring. I'll miss how slack I was during lesson time. I'll miss teachers scolding us and emphasizing how O's is reaching and pushing us to the best. I'll miss teachers giving whole lots of exam papers for us to do. I'll miss texting you about studies during O's, even in 1plus in the morning about geog, and meeting up for chemistry. I'll always think of you whenever i come into contact with chemistry. I'll miss every single one of you who I've met in 2010. I appreciate every single one's presence. Thankyou and bye 2010. I can never have you back but i'll really remember you in my memory.

Happy New Year 2011, I'll be in Taiwan celebrating 2011, flying in about 8hours time. So yes, Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Freedom

2010-11-26T13:49:00.004+08:00

O's are officially over on 12th Nov! Thanks to those who wished me "Happy Birthday" on my birthday, appreciate it! & Christmas is coming! :)

Graduation Lunch on 20th. ♥ BFF. Can't wait for the picnic with you girls! :))

I realised i can't do retail, because i'll get too bored standing and doing nothing. For example yesterday, i have to change the price of some items as it'll be having a promotion price. So i have something to do and the time passed very fast! So i need to do admin stuffs, like seriously. Hoped that the person will call me to work for them! Been about a month since i last updated my blog. Actl i did update the first day of the month, but i later changed it to draft because i see no point.

Red Camp was seriously AWESOME. ♥♥♥ I seriously love the Hop Night, danced crazily like nobody's business. The songs that the DJ picked totally fit the atmosphere. I used to dislike "Like a G6" whenever i hear it on radio because it's kinda irritating. But when it played during the Hop Night, i totally fall in love with it! Freaking cool. I want to go clubbing next time! Whenever i hear Glee Songs, i'll always think of the Mass Dance!! Really love it like mad! How i wished red camp never ends. CENTURIONS GONNA BEAT.YOU.DOWN! (Y)

Thankful.

2010-10-15T22:41:00.003+08:00

Exactly 10days to the first written paper, 6days to practical.

Time flies really fast, 5years felt like a year. :( Thanks for the laughter 5B.

I MISS 5B. GOODLUCK FOR YOUR O'S GUYS. :)

28 days to nightmare

2010-09-23T16:55:00.004+08:00

20th Aug -> Prelims -> teachers' day concert -> prelims -> holidays -> mugging -> prelims -> out, enjoy-> results -> 23th Sept.

Have not gotten back most of the papers. Only got back English, Additional Mathematics, Chemistry and Social Studies. Left E-mathematics, Geography, POA and Physics. Quite satisfied with my results EXCEPT english. Although i'm satisfied with my results, i still will want to aim higher because my results are always so inconsistent which sucks like hell :( Damn sad can! Sigh, O's is coming nearer and nearer. I guess i'll have to practice more English comprehension and SBQ. Sigh.

"When you thought problems are coming to an end, it is actually just the beginning."

Grateful

2010-08-20T20:29:00.002+08:00

If only my frustrations can be in a form of music.

I shall summaries the events that happened.

Had 4 days of holiday on National day week.
Studied with Jessica on 31/07.
HAD B4 FOR MY CHINESE! I'M SO EXTREMELY ELATED!! :')
I can't believe my family was happy for me, maybe because they knew my Chinese sucked! :P
I'm content that you were proud of my results though it's been months since we've texted each other :)
This week was busy practicing the dance for Teachers' Day.
Reached home near 7pm this week :(
Dance performance was awesome!
Funny how I had bugged Miss Lam to let me attend her Chemistry lesson on Saturday.
The audition for Teachers' Day was hilarious!
Had 2 mock exam and 1 test :(
Love the Titration Practical on Thursday and Len's practical today!
Today's dance practice was totally A-W-E-S-O-M-E!
I want to practice my dance, can't wait to perform on Teachers' Day!!
I'm all so excited about Teachers' Day performance.
I dreaded Prelim next Thursday :(
Next Tuesday is my oral :(:(
The criteria and standard for Situational Writing from Miss Long is high :(
My legs are tired and cramped after dancing the whole afternoon!
Had Pizza Hut for my dinner today :)

I'm so dead beat now yet I still have to go schooll tomorrow for Chemistry lesson and studying with Jessica after that!! :( It's all worthwhile, last lap to go! Jiayou Jiayou Jiayou!

Not gone to waste

2010-07-27T20:40:00.005+08:00

I asked myself, "Can I really do it?" And i realised i have no idea, I must really study. My studies are so screwed that i've no confidence in myself at all. I can't do it. The race has started long ago, yet i'm not running. I'm only breeze walking. When i reached the finishing point, it'll be all too late if i don't start to run. I should start running now, not stopping at all. I can't afford to stop or slow down. It's the last lap to go, go for the best now, all the way until the finishing line. Strike all the way, time wait for no one. I'll be the biggest fool on Earth if i still think time waits for me. Since my results for Prelim 1 is so screwed, i shouldn't let it affect my Prelim 2 and O's, all the more i should buck up and mug harder. I believe i can, yes i believe.

Reminisce

2010-07-06T16:47:00.007+08:00

I missed the time when we used to text each other almost everyday for 2months. It's been 5months since we've last met each other, and i don't think we'll ever have the chance to go out tgt and meet each other. Unless fate allow us to meet coincidently somewhere. I shld have been more decisive so you wouldn't change your opinion of me. You didn't know that seeing your text makes me happy and i would stop everything just to reply you. Even when you said you're busy and would text me later, i would wait even if you reply hours later. I miss how you'll entertain me with your humour whenever i feel bored. Miss staying up in wee hours chatting with you in msn. But somehow we just stop texting each other, and i see no point because you won't reply me in msn, not to mention replying to my text. I wished i wasn't living in the west area. Although i really had given up on you, but someone just reminds me of us texting to each other and it just faded off. Like what Jessica mention, "It's sad to realised people we know became people we knew." I wished we never stopped texting each other. I wished we would go out again, which is not possible 'cause you're so busy with your stuffs and i don't think you would remember me. I wished we never have to stop texting and chatting with each other. Although we only know each other less than a year, i still felt happy when we were texting each other. It's all my wishful thinking, 'cause it's all wished, which would never happen. Yes, i do miss you.

Why the sudden reminisce? 'cause texting my friend almost everyday reminds me of you. I hope you would remember me and wish me "Happy Birthday" and "Good luck for my O's".

Don't Stop Believing

2010-07-04T14:06:00.004+08:00

Time is Gold

My Prelim 1 is so screwed :( I didn't studied for any single thing, except for POA. I'm so guilty about it, but it's over. I just have to work doubly hard for Second Prelim and O's. A study routine etc, but it's all talk but no action. :( It's July, 3 more months to O's. FML.

Glee is ♥♥♥!!! :)

"Light tomorrow with today."

Friends

2010-06-25T02:17:00.003+08:00

Peace

Make peace within ourselves. Prelims starts next monday, i'm prepared to fail. I don't care if i'm banned from using computer. 'Cause i can concentrate on my studies, but i care if i'm grounded or my cellphone is being confiscated :( I do wish i have peace for a day at home, looking out of the window at the clear blue sky.

3rd week of holiday is total wasteful! Been slacking and rotting at home, studied with Chuxin on Thurday, rot on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. But used that 4 days to do my Chinese Oral thing, not easy okay! :( Also used those days to do my POA theory notes. So i guess 3rd week of holiday is not that wasteful after all, isn't it? :) I love my notes!

4th week of holiday is a study week for me! But i guess it's a little too late for me to start studying for next week's prelim. :( I have not started studying on my combined humanities. Kept reading again and again but nothing just goes into my mind! Sigh, i guess i'll flunk the paper. What i really love about this week is i've met up with my primary schl friends! Meeting them after 4 years. I love you people, let's go out again next time round! ♥♥ You guys are really humourous. Studied with Shaoyi♥ yesterday ('cause it's after 12am) then movie with Serena. Karate Kid is just awesome! Jaden Smith is very funny! Consultation on Saturday and maybe studying. What to study? SS, Geog? Oh no, combined humanities really suck, nothing goes into my mind at all. :(

One sentence to describe this holiday, wasteful yet somehow fruitful. Still, i'll still flunk my prelims, high possibility.

"If you think you can do it, you can. But i think i cannot do it."

Narcissus

2010-06-13T03:23:00.002+08:00

Narcissus

Everyone deserve a chance to live, it's a very sad thing if someone close to you were to have a terminal illness, 7F... To die at home or at hospital with your family being sad, or to die happily alone in somewhere you wish to be with a new friend. I'll choose the latter one. It's a very sad visual novel, sigh! :(

I'm taking the time now to blog 'cause it's half-time for FIFA World Cup 2010 England vs USA. I support England, who do you support? :)

Not myself tonight

2010-06-06T23:48:00.004+08:00

Changed my blogskin! But it's still white. But somehow the bold word isn't working. The words still appear to be normal. Example, i bold the word example but it isn't bold. I don't know how to solve this problem. :( Or is it only my browser cannot see that the word is bold? :( Can you see?

I swear i'm not going to cut my hair real short until shoulder length. Maybe not until i'm 25 :)

2010-06-06T14:50:00.002+08:00

I'm not ready for Prelim 1 right after June holidays. I need to start mugging but i'm not. Once a slacker, always a slacker. Jiayou Jiayou!

"If your head tells you one thing and your heart tells you another, you should first decide whether you have a better head or a better heart."

Unique

2010-05-30T01:32:00.004+08:00

Life is like a ladder, every step we take is either up or down.

I'm afraid of Monday, Chinese O's. I hope, I pray.

Sometimes, life is tired until you don't feel like living.

"Don’t ever underestimate anyone, we are all geniuses waiting to happen."

Self-R.

2010-05-19T16:36:00.004+08:00

Felt so demoralised lately :( I'm such a slacker, i slack when everyone else around me are working very hard. I don't fit to be in the society?

I just came to post 1 picture that reminds me of my childhood.

The toy car! I think this is called toy car or car machine? I forgot, i only remembered my mum would let me sit whenever i wanted to when i was young. Time flies isn't it? It's been 16 years 7months since i'm in this earth.

"Nothing could change the fact."

Appreciate

2010-05-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

Happy Mother's Day to all mothers! :)

Celebrated Agnes's 17th at Chevron. Stayed over and had fun with the guys playing cards and gossiping. (Guys do gossip! :P) They never failed to be very high. :) Yoga is the funniest of all, not bad chatting with Taegoo 'bout primary schl times, my impression of Yuen How changes again! From irritating in class to not very irritating in chalet! Thanks Jessica for staying over, since both of us didn't plan to stay.

I got my bangs! Bang bang!

"I realised that i rather smile like nothing happen than explaining anything."

Forlorn

2010-04-30T19:18:00.003+08:00

Chinese's Prelim is over, i didn't study the whole night, perhaps just abit. I don't know what to study for Chinese. Who likes to study anyway.

My blog title says it all about my life.

"Its easier to fake a smile than explaining why you're sad."

Distant

2010-04-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

I realised everything of my life very "cui" y'know. It's like so hectic yet i don't feel hectic cus i've been slacking and i deserve to be stressed becus i slack when i'm not suppose to and i always do last minute work! Example, studying for Chinese Mo Xie the day before the test!

42 more days to Cheena O's and i'm not ready for it. I'm not even ready for O's. FML. I seriously don't think i can make it. Screw my life.

"Give up, don't give up, give up, don't give up."

Sophiscated

2010-04-15T00:19:00.003+08:00

From now on, i'll stop being gullible. Everyone keep lying and lying and lying until i don't know what to believe. I realised all my theories were all wrong.

Everyone drift, no matter how close you are, you will surely drift. Now i agree with this statement, the guy who proved me wrong, proved me right about this statement after 4 months.

I always trust/see the wrong person. I'm such a lousy person!

"Cherish, to hold and appreciate. Not to kick away when you don't like that person."

Stoned

2010-04-12T00:00:00.004+08:00

Jessica doesn't believe that i have nothing to blog and my life is mundane :(

Pictures of Ginger with that don't-know-what's-that-called and town with bffs, if that's what you call. :) Removed Ginger's don't-know-what's-that-called and she's most more free-er to move and happier! :)

I.Want.To.Cut.Bangs!! Should i? :( If i'm gonna cut bangs, i'll change my parting to another side becus my current side is so bald :( But i'm very lazy to go out and cut leh! And ky doesn't wants to cut for me :( Hehehe!

Gemma is going crazy, yes i shld be! I don't care if i'm bo liao or what, becus i just need a bo liao sense of humour to make myself happy. 2more weeks to MT Prelim and 50 days to MT O's. FML x100000.

Wong Pann lied to me again! Go away laaaa! :(

"Goodluck, i don't care."

No One.

2010-04-06T21:50:00.002+08:00

No one will believe that i will study, no one will believe i can't do it. I guess, they will only believe i did my homework. Becus i'm like infront of the com for 24/7 when i'm at home, and they never seen me studying. Yes they do, but they call that last minute revision for test.

Teachers think i can do it, teachers think i know everything. Actl i don't, in fact, i know NOTHING.

In short, I envy those who had friends who are willing to spend time to teach them slowly from the basic. Perhaps it's becus of the busy year.

"Simple thing looks complicated yet complicated thing looks complicated."

April's Fool!

2010-04-04T16:53:00.002+08:00

Glad, ct 2 is over.

Comb. humans killed me, totally. Hopefully i can score well becus i did memorise and apply to the question! Hope we can get back our papers next week. :) This year's April Fool doesn't seems to be April Fool becus all our moods are ruined by comb humans ct! If not i guess we'll be as high as last year :)

"The more you know, the faster the impression changes."

It brought me down

2010-03-26T19:15:00.003+08:00

I'm loss for words, it's 'O' level year. I can't afford to be distracted. But things are beyond my control. But i can only say, i only have myself to blame for being dumb.

Talked about it and it made me so loss for words. I don't know why is this happening to me, wrong things at the wrong time. I really have a bad/wrong taste. I don't say it's bad, but totally wrong.

That's called life with ups and downs isn't it?

No matter what, i don't have the right.

"Talking doesn't makes thing right, it makes thing more complicated."

Just a fraction of your love fills the air

2010-03-16T00:39:00.002+08:00

Lunched @ PSH's ytd since it's past 12 (L).

I'm really gonna make full use of this 1 week of holiday to enjoy myself which includes replenishing my sleep that was deprived by schl, watching movies on the internet, steamboat with friends. I don't wish to think about studies and everything. O's so stress, so many topics, subjects, chapters. I can really die especially when teachers are so busy with other classes also. Like heck, i only failed Comb humans with the E8 grade. So ugly like hell, i rather get a D7! Glad that i passed by English, thanks compo :)

I used to believe that when people are very close until they text/msn everyday, they'll surely drift one day, from less texts to not texting at all. It all happened to me, no matter who it was. From texting everyday until there's not any text at all. And i always believed that people surely drift further and less texts, NO ONE proved me wrong for 16years. But finally, someone (Guy B) proved me wrong and i hope this Guy B and i will never drift and continue as really good friends. Becus until now, we're like still on msn and texting for 3months! Nah, i don't like him, he's just a very good friend of mine, who proved me wrong. The only person y'see. :)

No, it's not hua chi at all. Yet, what could i do? Accept the fact that it's impossible and thinking of it everyday. Stop thinking of the impossible, Gemma!

"Face it, it sucks when you know it's not gonna come true at all."

Disappointment!

2010-03-11T17:31:00.005+08:00

Edited: Apparently, what i said was rather offensive (by Jessica), so i decided to delete it off! But i still hold my stand!

Sports' day was boring leh, Cheng house 4th AGAIN, forever. Cheng house has been lousy ever since my batch becus all the lousy runners are Cheng house and all the good runners are from Ai House. But ever since my batch(express and NA/NT) graduated, Ai house dropped tremendously. Hr and kl are fast runners leh! Too bad they graduated, wasted. But this year Zhong house won!! I was very shocked becus i didn't expect them to win, i expected either Ai or Qin. But Ai house got second. Not bad :) But very angry with sec 1/2s, asshole one lor, play like some immature kids, food/drinks also wanna play, like hell. Inconsiderate and don't know how to think of other people and people around them being disturbed and irritated. Wth man. Childish kids.

GOOD JOB JURONG (Y) BBALL, you better train harder if you guys really wanna get into national and bring glory to Jurong, our seniors really had a hard time keeping the glory of champions for West-Zone and National okay!! :DDD I hope they can maintain Jurong's glory for both girls and boys bball and volleyball! My voice, don't go away!

And i got a fucking neighbour who is fucking crazy that got some mental problem becus he fucking see Ginger not happy and actl bark like a dog early in the morning, purposely attract ginger and make her bark. Wtf man he, fucking 50 years old still got mental problem, got 1 police case with us for throwing chemical/dirty stuffs at our main gate still not enough is it. Feel like slapping your face if you're not 50years old. Pffft!!

Focus, can't.

2010-03-06T00:33:00.004+08:00

Life and schl/studies are stress/complicated/tired/boring. I can't walk through.

I'm afraid my rashes will leave a scar and disfigure my face :((( Pimples are starting to appear on my oily face! Need to do something to my oily face, i don't like it and didn't realised that my face was oily :(

"Why are you vain? Because i'm 17!"

Mull

2010-02-24T22:56:00.002+08:00

Am i greedy to aim for 12points for L1R4 (with english at least b4) when i know i can't reach that goal?

Trying.

2010-02-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

Lost

Many directions, many obstacles, many sufferings, many hopes, many problems.

I don't know if it's purely luck or what but i'm seriously passing subjects for common test which i think i did badly. Like chemistry and a-maths, i'm like totally wth can. I swear it's luck becus i didn't even practice hard for a-maths. Just practiced 2 questions on trigo, integration and area of region are manageable. I lost marks in differentiation of graph. Don't know when to differentiate or integrate to have the gradient and sub what number to which equation. Chem is totally speechless. At least i passed! SS and geog is certainly a fail becus i didn't study and SS freaking came out rise when i studied fall. FML :( I think my studies cannot make it, feel like giving up halfway. Sigh.

Overall, CNY was pretty alright. Getting boring each year and just excited for the fun of it and wearing nice clothes!

Watched Hachiko and i seriously cried like no tml :( I cried when the professor treated Hachiko well. I cried when the professor died, i cried when Hachiko waited for his owner at the train station. I cried when Hachiko ran all the way to the train station from the professor's daughter house at another place. I cried when Hachiko seems excited to wait for his owner for 10 years without fail when he's owner is not gonna be back. I cried when Hachiko was alone. I cried when Hachiko died, i kept crying and crying. Almost cried while talking to Sihua about Hachiko, and i'm crying now typing this. Omg :( I will think of Ginger and learn to cherish her more. But the show is very sad, i can't afford to watch it again. I swear and Hachiko is very loyal, i feel damn sad for him :((((

Shall end abruptly, extremely sad :(

"I'll try to forget what i'm suppose to, although it's very hard. Becus i know, it's impossible."

Tell me

2010-02-11T17:10:00.002+08:00

Screwed my Common Test. I'm so screwed, FML. Giving up, cannot make it.

Imbecile

2010-02-07T00:14:00.003+08:00

I agree with what Jessica said in her blog,

"Sometimes, it'll be great to keep all your feelings inside, it won't make a change even if you were to speak up, so just carry on bottling it up."

It made so much sense, it won't solve the problem, make the problem easier, it won't change anything. So myob next time.

I'm almost to the verge of giving up on studies and everything. It's very stressful and everything especially when you don't know how to do, no one is there to guide/teach you. The feeling of 'i want to die' when you're super pekchek of a question which you don't know how to do or don't understand. Yes i am, becus my studies are not good all along. Don't tell i'm contradicting myself just becus i got top 10 for the past 3 years. My total percentage is just 60+ not even 70%. I didn't get a distinction for any subject except POA and emaths, the rest are all b3 and b4 WITH the help of common test and CA marks. Without them, i don't even think i can get b3 or b4, or even 60% and above.

Especially English, it's like what the heck. Keep failing and failing for the past few years. Recent common test i failed my paper 2 by fucking 1 mark. Totally wth. I had never ever pass my paper 2. Wth man, say byebye to O's. Common Test are next week and i have the confident i'll flunk every single thing. Guarantee plus chop i'm gonna flunk my chem, amaths, ss and geog. FML please. K whatever, i'm not the study type and i'm not gonna say i will pass my O's with flying colours becus i sucks. Never have the confident when you'll be disappointed in the end. I'll try. Might be 90% failure, perhaps.

"True, if it's hopeless, it's hopeless. No use trying."

8 more months of battle

2010-02-01T20:29:00.003+08:00

Gave up half way... Almost.

I'm...

2010-01-30T13:45:00.001+08:00

Extremely USELESS.

Everything is getting harder and harder to learn and...

Once in a while.

2010-01-25T20:40:00.002+08:00

LOVE YOU GIRLS! :) You girls made my day fun! Hang out another time! :)

Thank you very much! Although i have many bad feelings of myself last time, but somehow you changed my view sometimes! Once in a while! Let's mug hard tgt, although i know i will be the only one not mugging. You know i can't do this alone, many distractions. Oh well. Too bad i guess.

The rest of the pictures are at my facebook album. Lazy to post everything so go there and see if you want to.

Screw up organic chem test, new chapt tml, speed of chemical reaction or something. Prepare to be gg-ed again! :) My life is so screwed up, by studies. Many people hate Mr Tham, he's not even fit to be a principal. I hate him for screwing our recess, our hair, our studies and our schl reputation. You know we had a hard time building up JSS reputation like crazy, Ms Tham did a really great job. Moreover, the Juniors are getting arrogant, you will not have a good time here. Stop whining like a bitch becus i hate it, how contradicting. zzz.

Bye.

"They say believe in yourself. I believed something, but it didn't came true."

What's WRONG?

2010-01-21T20:52:00.005+08:00

Seriously, what's wrong with the world?! Anything also my fault. I ask obvious things which i really don't understand also my fault. I'm stupid, also my fault. What i do also my fault. Totally wth leh. Fucking pissed now, next time i don't want to do anything and just stay out of everything. Idiot one leh, i do this get scolded, i do that, also get scolded. Totally wth.

Organic chem test next week GG, all test also GG. Screw life.

P/S: Happy 17th Birthday Michelle! :)

Badly.

2010-01-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

Been so demoralised lately, worse time ever in my whole life. I really hate it when people say "Up to you." I wouldn't ask you for advice if i know what and how to do. Yes, i am contradicting myself, that's precisely why i'm asking you for advice. Not "up to you" answer.

Can only describe one word for this week. Fuck, don't ask me why. Been saying fuck even for the littlest thing. Really stupid. This kind(dumb, stupid, loser, noob, clumsy etc) of people (like me) shldn't live, shld let those happy, healthy, happy-go-lucky, talented, lucky, kind, caring, respectful, clever, smart, hardworking people live.

If i mug now, my engine sure break down around May. If i don't mug, i don't know when shld i start mugging. I can't mug for long, i'm prone to distractions. Life just sucks with studies especially when O's this year. FML. I think i can just flunk it and go higher nitec. At least 2 years higher nitec with the course i like, still can go to poly without taking O's which i don't like. Longer route yet peaceful vs Shorter route yet dangerous and high risk.

Bye.

Decision

2010-01-12T17:45:00.002+08:00

Everyone is like retaking 'O' level Emaths leh! Except for those A1.

TO RETAKE, OR NOT TO? :(

Sigh, 17 wannabe girl yet still dumb/stupid/clumsy/noob/loser/can't make up her mind as ever. Omg.

Story of Emaths

2010-01-11T21:38:00.005+08:00

I've never in my whole life expected i'll get a distinction in my major exams. Somemore it's MATHS. Can you believe that i actl get an A2 for a subject that i hated in pri schl?! Just imagine i kept failing my maths in pri 5 and 6 for every single test and exams. Then i pri 6, we have this small group of maths held by another teacher which i really like her becus she's really very good! I miss her lo :( And we had this maths lesson until PSLE. So if we passed PSLE maths, she will treat us swensens! But i really didn't study for PSLE, i swear. And coincidently, that year, maths was fucking hard. Like seriously, i left blank some problem sums question! So i thought i would fail, but at the end i got a C! :) I was glad becus it was really very hard.

When secondary schl came, i had tuition tgt with my sis as she was having O's. Basically, i tuition every subject la, but i focus on maths only, i seriously hate maths. But somehow i managed to get a b3 or b4 for EOY with the help of my tuition tcher, if not i'll surely fail. Becus i rmb our maths tcher was not good and our class was very bad, we drove the tcher away, so DM came, and discipline issues and no maths tcher for the last few weeks before exams. Then Nov/Dec hols came, i still had to tuition, and it's on maths. I totally couldn't understand sec 2 maths! Everytime i will be stuck at there with my head "wth". So when sec 2 came, Mr Ooi was really very good maths teacher! He teach super clearly and slowly and i understood every single thing. So i somehow managed to climbed to B3 and A2! I remember there's one time where i cried over this test becus i was so confident of getting 20+/30. But at the end i got 18? LOL, okay i suck -.- I remembered there was once i was stressed about this question becus i don't know how to do! Then i broke down again. Omg. I'm really damn noob lo.(Quitted tuition too!) But then i got A2 for EOY! So i qualify for Amaths, he also said i was over-confident blah blah, Jessica would know :P And he said i sure suffer for amaths. HE HIT ON THE NAIL %$@#!$@, i'm having much fucking difficulty now!! And no one wanna help me :( Still, sec 3, Mr Nur came to teach us, he was humourous la. My results at this period was abit unbalance. I don't know why. Still, i got an A2 for EOY. :) Then sec 4, tremendous drop like shit, i failed almost every test. Super shag man. I got c6 for Prelim 1 lor, becus it was freaking hard and i didn't studied for it, becus it's right after June holidays leh! Totally holiday mood lor :\ Then when i studied/practiced for prelim 2, the paper was easy -.- So i got an A1. After months of drilling, i finally got an A2 for O's! Seriously speaking, i didn't practiced for it on the day of O's, only abit, or maybe read through. You can say i don't deserve an A2, but i did practice few days before the major paper. :) The paper was super easy also, so i maybe shld get an A1 instead of A2. Heheh. Okay la, i sound like an bad ass -.-

Done with my journey of E-L-E-M-A-N-T-A-R-Y-M-A-T-H-E-M-A-T-I-C-S! :)

Congrats to O's top scorer and everyone who did well! Shihui, don't be sad, although you get a b3, you tried your best. Both me and you know that you deserve more than a b3. It's true.

After seeing those results of express and NA, i'm getting scare of my O's leh!! I REALLY NEED HELP ON MY FUCKING AMATHS LEH! But no kind ppl really wanna help me lor. Chemistry also! Damn heart-broken can :( Planned to mug hard for Cheena and just do it once for MAY and it's enough!

I'm always procrastinating, i really hope there's ppl who will consistently ask me to mug hard and give me motivation lo :( Tsk, but nvm. I'mma loser! That's what my korkor said although he's just joking! :( & i realised what i do, ppl also scold me lor, damn sad can.

Bye.

P/S: Dental tml, changing my braces colour again! :DDDD

"If you tried your best, at least you did it without any regrets. You reap what you sow."

Gemma is happy happy girl! :)

2010-01-10T18:56:00.003+08:00

Although this week lesson was boring, really really boring, but this weekend nephew made my week bright lo. Actl i wish someone can bright up my (every) week. :( But i know i'm not so lucky la, i also not ben xiao jie -.- But nevermind, better than nothing though.

Zoo was fun ytd, enjoyed it. I'm very lazy to elaborate so i'll just cut short. Those animals are super cute :) Tiger, Giraffe, White Rhino, Baboons, Monkey, Elephant, Zebra etc. Nice nice! Thanks Wong Pann. And i told ya i'm not a good "tour guide/planner" so ya, sorry for disappointing you though.

Actl i'm super demoralised now but i don't want to demoralised whoever is reading so i'm gonna demoralised myself. Bye. :( Sigh, nothing to do with tml though.

Pray for A1 tml.

P/S: I keep thinking and laughing about ytd to myself. Lol.

First Day of Schl

2010-01-04T17:32:00.004+08:00

I'm still in my holiday mood and i have a sudden urge to blog all my rantings, i can be irritating but well, don't read it if you don't like being irritated or what :)

First ranting: I hate my current seat becus i can see shit! :)

Second ranting: It's so bored without having lessons for today and tml! :( Becus we're getting our timetable tml!

Third ranting: Schl ends at 2.15pm instead of the usual 1.15pm. Perhaps becus it's our major year that's why they extend the timing. (I just realised NO, WHOLE LEVEL!! But we're considered lucky becus it's our last year and 1hr extention is good for us! :P) But 2.15pm + Extra lessons/Amaths/CCA = 5plus ends! :( There goes my beauty time to slack! :(

Fourth ranting: NO MORE SCHOLARSHIP LETTER! OMG, WHY TOP 10% AND NOT TOP 10 LEVEL?! -.- #!$@%!#%$@!

That's what i like about ranting here where little people knows you have a blog!

I feel so shag even though i didn't do anything in schl la! I don't know why i always feel so shag whenever i come home lor :( Maybe becus i woke up early today :( I realised i'm a complain queen lor, keep whining and whining and whining. :( But well, don't talk to me then. Tsk.

Results out next week! Omg omg, wonder how's my results! A1 A1 A1, pray!! :)

2010

2010-01-02T01:36:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!

My Resolutions this year are very simple.

- Distinction for Emaths O's Results in Jan'10.

- Do well and good results for O's this year.

- Everyone to be healthy and happy.

I don't want to be greedy but if i want to be happy, i must have things to make me happy right! :P I'm demanding. :) Finished watching anime, there's only 2 anime which i really love watching. Detective Academy and Higurashi no Naku Koro ni. I love watching mystery and thriller anime :) Actl Toradora is also nice, more of high schl life, relationship blah blah. But the show is kind of expected ending lor. I don't think there's anymore anime which will interest me alrdy. Hahah.

Had a satisfying holiday, although there's no one to maple with me like in June, i still "enjoyed" every single moment rotting. Lol. I love going out with Cx and Wj to town. Love you guys. Goodluck for N's and O's! I'm suppose to write all this stuffs at the previous post la, but i forgot to add in so it doesn't matter now. I'm not an organised person. I still think everyone will drift, no matter how confident you are in saying "I sure won't forget you." Yet i'm still so believe that you won't forget me and your friends. Sick and tired of all this crap, i want a genius sight. People get busy with stuffs, talk lesser in msn etc. It applies the same if you're always talking to a friend, and you'll stop talking to him/her soon after. It's ALWAYS like that. Sick and tired of having disappointment with hope. Tsk.

P/S: Justin Bieber is a gay! But i still love his songs :)

P/S/S: Schl one day later, kinda excited but dreaded it.

"Don't deal if you break that deal indirectly and act like it's not your fault. It's still indirectly YOUR fault."

Last Month, Last Day.

2009-12-31T23:02:00.000+08:00

Last post for the year! I truly love 2009 la, those times i mugged hard for my Emaths O's! :) It was my first time which i really mug hard lor. But nevertheless, 2010, here i come! :D Hope it'll be a better year for me, NOT. Becus i'm having O's next year and parents and siblings are going overseas during May/Jjune and leaving me alone!! What the heck! Hate it man. Hmph :( This year pass like a strike of lighting.

Thanks my mugging partner, Cx. Besties, Wj,Sh,Ky. Jokers/Entertainers/Advices, Bm, Ys, Wp, Kevin although it's a short while. Thank you guys for this 4, 3 and 2 years! :) THANKYOU! You guys made my world go round. Perhaps next year will be a different year as we go seperate ways. Still, thankyou and love from me! :)

Bye '09. (Memories, memories and more memories)

"Those that know, do. Those that understand, teach."

Joyful

2009-12-25T19:47:00.006+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

It's 25th of December, which means less than a week to schl reopens! :((( I'll wish for happiness if Santa isn't a fairytale. But well, it's all fictional, fictional and MORE fictional. Eat lunch and dinner with family and aunt's family. Turkey, Ham, Spaghetti. It's marvelous la the food! :) Mass Spam Text wishes, felt very happy to wish people, yet i suddenly felt so down, nothing to do feeling when i've finish wishing.

Sis save me this cute squarish box, perhaps suitable for putting jewelleries or rubber band. Gemma doesn't want schl to reopen, like i said, no more mugging partner :( I have no motivation. Diediedie! Amaths, Chem, SS, Geog, English. Screw you all.

Still afraid of of results next month. Sigh.

"Never let other people's opinion of you affect yourself, but i've failed to do it."

3 more days to Christmas!

2009-12-22T22:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRHDAY WANGSHIHUI! :)

May your wishes come true and let's watch our first NC16 show tgt :P And goodluck for your Emaths O's results next Jan! I'm such a bad friend becus i realised this is the ONLY photo we took tgt for these 2 years. I'm sorry :( I'm a very very bad friend! But i'm really glad i've know this really very good friend! Mug hard for O's and especially Cheena! :D

6 days more.

2009-12-19T00:57:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so demoralising now becus i heard the N lvl results and i'm very shag now. So i can't think well. Feeling sad becus most of my good friends are going ITE :( I really have the confident they can promote and even planned to DPA and study tgt for O's. Now all gone :(((

I'm now very scare of taking O's becus i realised my studies sucks. I have the feeling of giving up la, but if i give up then i'll have no cert. Stupid through train :( Stress not stress. So many syllabus and subjects and memorise so many things! :( Especially my weak subjects are really weak until extremely hopeless. Sian half. No motivation to study and i can't study for long hours even if i really wanna work hard. No one to mug with next year :(((

Byebye.

4C'o9 - FUN.

2009-12-18T15:59:00.004+08:00

Luv 4C'o9 Class Chalet although i have the freaking lack of sleep for both nights. Only slept for like an hour or so during the first and second night. BBQ-ed on the first night and i bbq-ed!! HAHA. First time really standing infront of the pit and barbequing hotdogs and crabmeat. I'm so proud of myself! :) Really sweat like crazy for the first hour, and then i'm extremely smelly. BBQ-ed until night, bathed and i really smell damn nice! I like! :D Eat chicken wings!! BBQ-ed a bit, eat then get ready for bed at 1plus. Chitchat until 3plus and shihui and wenjun fell asleep while me and khaiyee went to the living room. Wanted to sleep at 4plus but the beds are occupied by 3 people only, wth. -.- But i didn't want to disturb them becus i'm good! HAHA.

So slept at the sofa at the living room for about an 1hour while the rest were in their rooms playing, slacking and some in the living and dinning area chitchatting. Woke up about an hour later and i couldn't sleep back. So slack and hear people chitchatting while lying on the sofa. Damn boring. Slack from 5 or 6plus until 8 or 9plus leh! :( Wj, sh and gk woke up so i went to sleeeeeeep! Went to eat subway with Shihui and wenjun for lunch! :D Then blah blah blah, and walked a freaking long way, i think 30mins to rent bike, long long way. Cycled back and blah blah blah.

Aiya, I very lazy to type la. I'm getting lazier to type each time i come back from joyous occasion. -.-

I think i'll skip until the night where me and khaiyee fell off the bike. Very funny la. We both fell and lucky me fell on my butt instead infront lor! :) It's very funny la, we both laugh like crazy. Went to sleep at night but can't so at the end played cards with others, very funny la. :) Played until 6am then some of them woke up, so me,sh,ky,wj slept until 9plus. Went to return the bike and home sweet home! Wanted to sleep but yeah, i can't sleep becus i'm not sleepy. It's fun overall, me luvluv!

N's results out alrdy, Kevin's gonna go ite :((( Yanmei got 10 freaking points!! Damn cool la. Must get below 19 to go sec 5 she get 10 points only!

Curiosity Kills the Cat

2009-12-10T01:59:00.003+08:00

I regret knowing the truth, i don't want to know. It's very illogical to happen, it's less than 1year for goodness sake. FML.

I don't want to take h1n1 jabs, i don't want it. I had enough of those fucking needles. Obviously all doctors want everyone to have that jab, not only a few.

Hi December.

2009-12-09T02:41:00.004+08:00

Mum didn't bring my lappy to States becus my lappy has no mircosoft office, lucky me! :) 3 more days before mummy will be back! Happy happy! :) Have to do most of the house chores when mum's not at home. I don't like it, if i marry next time, (if there's someone who wants me -.-) i die die also won't want to be a housewife doing house chores! I want to work :) I don't like doing house chores, tiring one lor. :( Especially throwing rubbish outside, i don't like!! Becus it's always me throwing lor, like wth. So what if i'm the youngest! Hmph.

Having appointment ltr at KK, sis's accompanying me becus usually mum's the one bringing me. But she's in the States now :( Felt so helpess without her leh, just imagine if she's not there with me, i think i will anyhow just nod to the doctor. Somemore it's the first time sis is accompanying me, so if i don't know what the doctor is saying then i sure gone case, becus mum always understand what he talking then tell me, all the chimology words. Although i'm the patient but i don't know those chimology words :( Doctor's words are hard to understand. Die alrdy la, next time i sure die for not knowing what the doctor is saying about my case -.- Hopefully can review once a year again.

Having Class Chalet next week, don't feel like going but i have to. Sian, hopefully i can enjoy uh :( N's results is also next friday, goodluck people! :)

Last week, i just suddenly felt that i will retake my Emaths O's becus i will get more than B4. I just got the feeling, FML. But i seriously got a bad feeling lor. :( Results next month, i wonder about my reaction.

Can't sleep again tonight, have to sleep at 11plus, 12 when schl reopens. It's 3am now, bye.

Jeopardy

2009-11-29T02:52:00.003+08:00

I'm kind of weird because i've been stoning and dazing for the past few hours, exploring Onsugar and tumblr and then deleting it. So you can imagine how bored and crazy i am. But i only can enjoy this kind of stuffs during holidays because when schl starts, i'll be dazing even more but not in front of my lappy, but on my bed which makes me look so retard.

Read my previous blog (again!) about last year and i think it's stupid and funny during the Sentosa Outing for Enrichment Course. I'm damn stupid leh! But i still miss the fun! :(

Haven't been doing any homeworks after geog. Serious homeworks can fml especially Cheena and English.

The same thing is happening again of having my mind blank when i click the "New Post" when actl i had thought of what to type.

I'm lazy to continue, no lappy for 8 days for the week after next becus Mum's gonna bring mine to US to work while i'll be dazing even more. FML. Hope i don't get depression though. HAHA.

It's 3 in the morning, goodnight.

"When you have faults, do not fear to abandon them."

Dream

2009-11-28T00:17:00.002+08:00

Found this picture while bloghopping. I find this very interesting! :)

:(

2009-11-27T00:18:00.006+08:00

Met Chuxin at noon and headed to town, walked like crazy la. Lucky i wore flats instead of slipper, if not i can say byebye to my legs. :) Damn sad becus we couldn't find anything that caught our eye.

Fareast -> Heeren -> Cineleisure -> Wisma -> Taka -> Fareast -> Bugis.

At the end of the day, i didn't buy anything instead i wasted 3 freaking bucks. Went out for nothing when i'm so excited for nothing also. :( My blood is boiling la!! Hate town alrdy!! :( Why am i so freaking stupid. FML. Had been sulking for the past freaking hours after my 3 bucks flew. I think i'm stupid to sulk for that freaking 3 bucks becus it's only 3 bucks!! Wth. I can go die seriously. Hmph. :((( Hate Chuxin for laughing at me lor! :(( More hmph!

But i'm not sulking becus of that freaking 3bucks now, i also don't know why. Wth, Gemma, why can't you understand yourself?!

Not a good day, sigh. :(

Stop sulking la, gnd Gemma!

P/S: I'm not sulking alrdy :) But i'm not smiling either. (1plus am)

Reluctant.

2009-11-23T16:55:00.005+08:00

Homework to be completed:
- English Comprehension
- English, find the meaning of 400+ words.
- 3 Chinese Compre
- 3 Chinese Compo
- 4 Chinese Letter Writting
- POA worksheet
- ~~Geography worksheet~~

Only completed 1 out of 7 homeworks. The thought of doing 10 Chinese things can make me go crazy. FML. Hate cheena, how the hell am i suppose to completed all my cheena homeworks with my standard of chinese?! I don't feel like doing. Wth.

My English compre sucks that much. I always fail my compre and i guess i shall just anyhow do -.- My next target is do the 400+ words by this week. BY THIS WEEK!! Shall copy POA from sihua for those Questions i don't know becus mostly is theory on section B. -.-

Sis was so sarcastic saying i'm so good becus i'm studying, i just shoot back at her i'm not studying becus i'm actl doing geog. :)

Dedicated Post

2009-11-20T01:57:00.006+08:00

This post is dedicated to my "beloved" nephew! (that's what he claim!) WONG PANN! :D

Sorry for stealing your picture! :))))

Although we've meet when i'm 9 and he's 10 during CNY. I don't know and don't even remember who he was, maybe becus i'm too young. Until Cousin Nuyen's wedding 3 weeks ago then knew him but i will still never remember seeing him when i was 9! Hahahah. His 9 years old sister is adorable and clever. Becus i've no idea how the hell did she manage to find me and my siblings in facebook! She can be my mentor in tracking people next time. :D P/S: She luvs calling us Aunty and Uncle)

Had been chatting with this big, tall, sociable, busy, superman (see how good is your aunty! :D) nephew for the past three weeks, he's nice la! Good entertainer :) But he keep saying i have no life, he keep repeating himself until i sian although it's the fact la! :( I know you have a lot of life and super busy! :)

This nephew actl freaking scold me leh! :( But that isn't the worse scolding i had anw. Hahah. Although it's for my own good, i think i shld thank myself for making him flare up becus he said that no one make him angry for very long alrdy. Lol.

This guy has great advises and experiences that are interesting, maybe for me becus i enjoy hearing people's life story and he've helped me too! :) Although he's always busy, he still have time for his friends and even games? -.- That isn't called busy. Hahah, super cold joke ._. Thanks for the 98.7 fm and those websites becus it killed my time! :D

Overall, he's a nice chap! :) Kind, helpful, caring, nice, friendly, strong, clever, handsome (NOT!) (Hahahaha!!), willing to help others, sociable and many other good points! You can date him if you want. LOL! He's gonna kill me once he see this :) Thanks, thanks and more thanks! Will give you your cookie real soon when you're free! (I haven't bake them yet! :)) And your icecream. HAHA! :)

I've spent ard 50mins thinking what to type leh! Lol, must thank your aunty! :)

P/S: I'm the only one awake now cus it's 3 in the morning!

P/S/S: This dedicated post made me think of Jessica. :)

3rd week of holiday

2009-11-17T14:05:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday Kimfang mama! :D

Had fun during grad lunch on the 14th, i'm lazy to upload pictures so therefore, just refer to my fb photos yeah. :)

Holiday's so boring, bye.

A lucky day, not.

2009-11-11T16:32:00.002+08:00

Happy 17th Birthday Darling! :D

"Higher hopes, greater disappointment. Don't give false hopes then."

Monday Blues.

2009-11-09T16:17:00.000+08:00

The show "Beyond The Realm of Conscience" is nice! Hongkong drama :D It's a show about people with a lot of tricks, unscrupulous and despicable going around the palace. Evil people will win in the starting but lose at the end, and good people will win at the end. Quite nice la, although i've watched until ep 5, still waiting for the rest to come out.

This show relates to human also and yeah, it really do.

P/S: Chem and eng lesson are super boring, didn't learn anything much -.- Wth.

P/S/S: No more zoo this coming wed :((((((((

"I'll cross that bridge when I come to it."

A another Typical Day

2009-11-06T19:36:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Cherelle! :)

Happy Belated Birthday Marcus & Isabel.

Sad today :( No, not becus i can't do MYOB exam. Not becus i failed to help ky to reconcile her MYOB exam. Not becus i can't get that Joo Chiat Road. Not becus i have lessons next week. But becus i'm sad. :( I think it's becus i slept too much during the afternoon :) (No link -.-)

Decided to skip lesson next week. I'll probably just go for 1 lesson of chem, english and geog and skip the other 2 lessons of Chem and 1 lesson of english. Going doesn't make the colour flies.

Can't think well now and i guess i'll continue dazing.

Sweet Sixteen! :D

2009-11-04T23:49:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to me!

Happy birthday to me!

Happy birthday to Gemma,

happy birthday to me!

I'm 16 years old like finally ._. I can watch NC16 show! :D If not wait i can't watch Sorority Row like that time -.-

I want to thank Gracia, Brenda, Zhenghua, Jessica, Irsyad, Chuxin, Vivien, Jungui, Shihui, Wong Pan, Lim Bim, Raymond, Ronny, Kevin, Mamat, Yanmei, Yeeseng, Kailing, Khaiyee, Sihua, Joanna, Radhiah (In order) And the rest in FB and schl :) Thanks people! :D (Some is i asked them to wish me :D Ahem, don't wanna mention names. HAHA!)

Thankyou people, especially Jessica, Tracy, Kailing, Wenjun, Shihui and Khaiyee! I think i'm fortunate to know you guys! :DDD Jessica, you never failed to wish me in different ways, thankyou much! :) Tracy and Darling, meet up soon! Thanks Wj, Sh, Ky for your presents! I was really surprise by it leh! I didn't expect your to buy me that. You know i don't wear dress except during formal occasions! :( But thanks to you guys, i have to wear it when i go out with your next time :( (Hopefully i don't go out with you guys. HAHA, just kidding! :D) Looking forward to the Zoo with you guys! :D

My phone spoiled! :(((((( And i'm gonna live with a spare phone w/o music for the next 3 months :((( Feb faster come!! I wanna change phone :(

MYOB course was fun and boring, fun becus the trainer is a joker la! Her gags are super cold! Happy farmed and was having fun stealing people's plant. Hahah! :D Having MYOB exam tml, hopefully i'll get distinction! :)

Dear Nephew has been entertaining me recently, he's fun la, becus he've got a adorable sister! Hahah.

Whole of next week packed with geog, chem and english! :( Who asked me to fail? I luv geog but i failed geog, how ironic. Becus i was totally helpless at that point of time and moodless to study, really. Even if i were to rewind time, i still would not have the mood becus it's a very sad thing lo! Geog leh, how pathetic of me to fail for the first time? :) Chem, as usual. :) English, another subj that i can't passed on paper 2. I feel so lazy to go leh! :( Shall see if i overslept a not.

I'm lazy to continue further becus i've forgotten what i want to type! & what the hell, i just realised my post is super long ._. Just press the X button at the top-right corner if you're lazy to read :)

"Ignore what others think as long what you do is right, but wrong in other's mind."

A thought for the day :)

2009-11-02T17:59:00.002+08:00

Read Cherelle's mei blog and was mulling about it. What she said really make sense.

Why do we celebrate birthdays?
Just because one turns another year older?
or to make that someone feel special?

When you actually wished someone 'Happy Birthday',
Have it ever occur to you that that person may not be happy?
Or did you really had that intention to wish that person?

Every year, birthdays are the same. Eating with family, celebrating with a cake which add 1 more candle every year. Sometimes i doubt if their wishes are sincere, or they just wished for the sake of wishing. Sixteen years of life, celebrating the same way. Getting presents and wishes from friends and family. And it's getting boring each year.

It's just 2 days away, and i'll be busy in schl having MYOB course. :(

Happy Halloween :)

2009-10-31T21:06:00.003+08:00

Whole load of homeworks waiting for me to complete, especially Cheena. I hate cheena and i'll never like it. :) 4 letter writing and 3 compo leh! Besides that, we still have to do 3 comprehension! :( Sigh, Mdm Lee wants to kill us all. Our holiday are just 2 months not 1 year, how to complete?! :\

I'm stoning in front of my com doing nothing. Maple's so boring and i'm lazy to train my character.

Although i'm the 9th position, my results still sucks. I can barely pass my english and i don't know how to improve on it. Same with my chem, thanks to my physic that pull my comb science up. Sigh, i'm very stupid :(

4 more days and i'm not excited about it, just typical.

Over.

2009-10-29T14:08:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday to Yijie(22th), korkor(27th), Kewei(28th).

It's all over! FYE, O's!

My target during the holidays:

- Pack my shelves. (It's totally goodness)

- Burn all my emaths stuffs. Winks*

- Buck up on my Chem and geog.

- Do SS notes.

I think i only can complete the first and second points. HAHA, okay i'm such a lazy ass :( I'm gonna enjoy myself like crazy at home! Sleep for as long as i want :) No more waking up early!

Getting report card tml, hopefully i can be the top 10. But i don't think i'm able to cus i didn't perform as well as last year. Sigh.

I want to improve my english, i want to stop speaking singlish. I need someone good in english to teach me :(

FYE ended :)

2009-10-21T16:50:00.002+08:00

1 week and a half week of exams finally ended last friday and checking of scripts today. Didn't really do well to my expectations but i think i deserve it cus i didn't put in a lot of effort.

English - Failed

Chinese - C6

Comb Sci - B4

Comb human - C5

POA - A1

A-maths - C5

That's only for the paper alone. Still not sure about overall, hopefully my sem 1 and 2 can pull up my grades. Hate comb sci and humans cus it totally pull each other down. Phy increase, chem decrease. SS increase, geog decrease. Ridiculous -.- Very disappointed with my geog but well, have to study hard next year. I'm happy for my Chinese becus i've passed! HAHAHA! I've passed chinese! :D

Emaths O's starting 6 days later, and i can't believe that i'm still here slacking away. What the hell. I'm a slacker -.- I'm happy that i can attend POA LCCI course thing! :D Happy happy!

Miss Tham is leaving the school this year and i'm sad becus i don't like Mr Tham. Heheh! Shall end here! Gonna change my blogskin soon! Boring blogskins everywhere!

Goodluck everyone for your O's! :)

Happy belated 16th birthday to kevin (12th).

Sooner or later.

2009-10-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!

HAPPY NC16th BIRTHDAY JESSICA! :D

Social Studies is finally over, globalisation came out after all! :D Hopefully i can score well budden my SBQ sucks. ._.

Byebye!

Back then.

2009-10-06T20:16:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry cus i actl read your previous blog. :\

I read almost everything, from 2006 to 2007 march. So many things happened at that time, so much. Okay i'm done with now.

Decided to study globalisation at last but not memorising yet, i think it's too late, how to memorise in 2 days? ._.

Goodluck people :)

Mugging time.

2009-10-02T20:11:00.003+08:00

Got back maths Emaths prelim results around 3 week of September. Quite satisfied but i think i can do better! :) Hopefully i'll get an A1 again for O's. Pray hard.

Fye started today, Cheena. First time in my whole life (i think) i used 1hr to complete my compo, solely on compo. Becus of bao zhang bao dao. Think quite long, hopefully i don't li ti :( Did Gong han and hopefully i can pass becus my gong han isn't that great. ._. But i'm still proud of myself becus i read "Hao Zuo Wen" book the previous night! And cope some of it for both compo and letter writing. Paper 2 was ... so "well" done. I'll chop off my head and let you sit if i pass my paper 2. LOL. Hopefully i can pass la! But i still don't think i am able to becus my all my compre is kinda screwed up except for the last compre, which i can both understand and answer. :)

Next thurs will be officially fye becus is english and the next few days are ALL exams, after 2 weeks, it'll be our maths O's. So must mug damn hard during that 1 week! Jiayoujiayou!

Have not touched maths today and i shall touch it now! Will complete Maris Stella paper and part of the higher order question worksheet. :)

P/S: I'm quite lazy to mug for SS, can i not mug? :(

Prelim II

2009-09-15T21:56:00.002+08:00

Glad it's over, the paper was super easy man! I have the confident of getting A1 for paper 2 ONLY. Not total marks, cus my paper 1 sure fail like crazy. Excited of getting paper 1 results tml, hopefully i will do better for prelim I. :)

I just found out one thing! Shihui is a hainanese! It's very suaku but i only know now, maybe i'm not a good friend, well. Hahah!

Hainanese, Cantonese and Hokkienese. :D

I shall end here for the day! Rushing to watch my show xDD

Happy Birthday!

2009-09-14T00:08:00.001+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY TAN KHAI YEE!

You're a really good friend! :) May your wishes come true and last long with LB! :)

2009-09-11T02:29:00.003+08:00

Work hard, Mug hard.

That's the best that i can do for myself, but laziness and distractions are crawling over me. ._. I've just done finish one schl of paper 2 and i'm gonna do another set of paper 2 later in the afternoon. No time to waste, all on maths. Hope i have time for other subjects, nevermind, after prelim 2 shall be :)

Stand up.

2009-09-10T01:37:00.000+08:00

I must start practicing my maths already! Cannot afford to slack anymore further! Realised that i can't concentrate in the library, so i shall not study in the library next time. Maybe home might be the best place? Maybe.

Now i know why got a serious headache, it's all becus of one simple reason. Not enough sleep ._. Make me go crazy for 2days, irritating. But i still love sleeping late at night, i don't really care about headache. Well, it doesn't really matter i guess.

'N' level papers are over for this month, the rest are in October, so jiayou people! :) & i shall concentrate on my prelims and FYE. Can die memorising chemistry! :(:( Hard to find a person who loves chem to teach me. Sadded, well! Nevermind, depend on myself.

It's 1.54am and i'm still not sleeping, i didn't managed to spend my time wisely, very guilty leh!! Walau, can go bang wall. Kelian de maths, i'm sorry if i flunked you, i promise/swear that i'll do my ultimate best in 'O's. I promise! :)

Maths Paper 1

2009-09-04T17:21:00.003+08:00

First time doing an exam in the hall. Very suaku cus i was excited and scare of doing in the hall. Yet i felt okay while doing the paper. Heheh. The paper was neither easy nor hard. Like prelim 1, yet i just passed for prelim 1 =.= I don't mind failing in prelim 2, i just wanna do well for O's. Mug hard T.T Left paper 2, jiayou Gemma! :)

Still, i can't neglect other subjects like comb humans, comb science and POA. Can't do anything with SS cus i've yet to receive SS notes from Yanmei sister ~ Don't feel like mugging now, no moood. Sept hols start tml but i don't feel like i'm having any holidays for the first time. Yes, maybe becus of maths paper 2 rigth after hols :( I need some motivation.

No time to waste on other trival issues like being sad or irritated/frustrated, cus must spend my time on studies and only studies. Cannot fall into those traps that make me have no mood to study! Agree? :D

N's start next week, so jiayou for those taking N's ya! :)

When i've said it will never happen, it will never. So please stop wasting your time.